The Last Indignity

I have started and stopped dieting so many times that that I am certain that yoyos are embarrassed for me.  But yesterday was the last indignity. I needed to buy a suit for a business trip to Las Vegas. The one suit that I have been wearing for five previous court appearances last year was beyond embarrassing and telling myself that I will lose weight so why by another suit is another one of those great lies that I have told myself.

Well on Sunday I went to Macy's to get a bigger suit. It was time. If I lose weight, great so I spent a few extra dollars, if I don't well at least I will have a decent suit. Not a great suit, I am only looking for decent. Well I get there and try on the biggest size in the store and it's too tight. The biggest suit Macy's sells didnt fit. I can't imagine a greater indignity.Now if I can keep this rememberance in my mind along with a visual picture of my stomach, then finally I can do something about this. No more lying to myself. I am fat, really fat and I am going to be fat for a long long time but it's time to get started for the last time without stopping. Yes there will be speed bumps but I am going to stay on the road. I am too embarrassed not to.